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- Title: Jessica's Way: Conversations With Myself
- Author : Jessica Ways
- Release Date : January 23, 2020
- Genre: Medical,Books,Professional & Technical,Nonfiction,Family & Relationships,
- Pages : * pages
- Size : 652 KB
Description
The emotional impact of child abuse is little understood by those who never experience it. It leaves a dark stain within the child's soul, a tangled mass of negative self-beliefs and emotions that can eat away at the child's happiness throughout their life. Worse yet, is the stain of childhood sexual abuse. No other trauma can leave a child in such a deep state of emotional turmoil and darkness than betrayed by those who are supposed to love, nurture, and protect them.
This darkness consumed Jessica's soul. She managed to survive a childhood of sexual abuse by a psychopathic half-brother, her cries for help ignored by those who should have come to her aid. She gave birth to her son at the age of sixteen—himself a progeny of rape by yet another extended family member. Kicked out of her home by her parents, dismissed as a troubled child by authorities, Jessica found herself staring into the eyes of her three-day-old son, her own happiness buried by a sense of worthlessness and a complete distrust of others. And at that moment, the single most important thought of her life bubbled up through the thick, black morass of her emotions: "He's never seen me smile."
A ball of self-loathing and disgust knotted her gut, tears streaming down her cheeks as she apologized profusely for her callousness. She swore to him that he would never know anything but love, that she would never allow him to feel abandoned, ignored, or abused. It was the beginning of a long journey, one with which she struggled for the first years of his life. Out of desperation, she decided to write a letter to herself. A touching letter in which she asked to find herself, to reach out and end the darkness. She finished and sighed, tears of frustration running down her cheeks. She didn't know what to expect, but it certainly wasn't to look down and see her own hand continuing to write—letters turning into words, words turning into sentences—and her with no idea of what was coming next.
The ensuing conversation—a conversation that continues to this day—offered her deep insights into herself, the human spirit, and even consciousness itself. Her emotional recovery began in earnest, though it took years for her to be willing to see the light within. Today, she is a happy mother of four children and wife to an adoring husband of twenty years. She decided to share these early writings in hopes that they might help others who find themselves in that darkness.
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